Reawakening Awkwardness

A box of poop ready to be shipped for testing

Forty-five years ago, I was mortified when buying condoms in a drugstore. The idea that the cashier, seemingly always a woman, would know what I was about to do with my purchase embarrassed me to my core. Now here I am, 63, and after waffling about a colonoscopy for more than 15 years and then throwing the last poop test kit away after storing it in my closet for a couple of years, I was asked once again to at least do the minimum of screenings for colorectal cancer. This newest box has been in the closet for a couple of months, glaring at me, telling me to poop in its cup or have a scope jammed up my butt so others can look around for polyps while I lie prone with my anus pried open after vigorously flushing the stool from my poo pipe.

This next part may be too graphic or personal for some, but I’m old, and old people aren’t always the most appropriate, so here it is. When I first started on Ozempic, not only did I not lose any weight at all, but pooping like a normal human came to an end. The proverbial “Work it out with a pencil” nearly became my method for trying to eliminate fossilized logs that somehow had taken root in my intestines, where they had found a new home after escaping the Petrified Forest National Park. Moving to Mounjaro this year not only has helped me lose 30 pounds, but it has nearly returned my sphincter to normal duties (you know I wanted to write “dooties”), and I was finally ready to step to the task, i.e., sit down. Like Goldilocks, I waited for the moment when just the right amount of bowel pressure would present itself a day after a normal movement, hoping things were primed by this kind of regularity. In my mind, this would ensure that some days’ old crusty feculence hadn’t taken up residence in the cavity where number two grows. Halting one’s ability to pass a blockage, while in such a vulnerable position, is anathema to happiness, as bearing down hard to force a movement risks overwhelming the tiny bucket under my behind.

The stars of the dooky gods were aligning when I felt my precious flower in the rear garden might release an amount without overwhelming me and necessitating a leap from the throne before my cup overfloweth. Not too dry, not a sloshing mess, just the right conditions for a successful deuce that would be shipped to some poor soul, far away, who would open the sample and count corn kernels or inspect for whatever other things those specimen processing technical specialists do for a living.

I felt a certain sense of winning here, for less than one second. Not feeling finished with my BM and afraid I’d fill the tank beyond carrying capacity, I half stood up so I could grab the cup of poop, importantly, not in water, and put it on the floor in front of me. Gack, I don’t think I had ever seen my poop so naked and confrontational. It dared me to look at it, sitting outside what should have been its watery grave, while I tried to finish my business. I can admit that my shit stinks, but I never appreciated just how bad the stench is, since typically, after being cut with my highly tuned sphincter, it quickly slips below the water surface. I don’t think I fully understood how effective that process is at masking the majority of what might otherwise crawl into my nose. Let me tell you, mere seconds passed before the offense reached my olfactory and had me reaching for the lid, which I placed atop the container.

But I wasn’t finished yet. Somehow, it never occurred to me how difficult the next steps would be, as I thought merely pooping in the cup would be the most difficult part. Nope, I had to pick up my bucket of poop, place it on the bathroom counter, lift the lid, and confront that stuff face to face, so to speak. Of course, I’m somewhere between thoughts of gacking and sealing it up without following the instructions, which I have to re-read to verify that I’m about to do the right thing because, of course, the details of these urgent steps slipped out of my head. In my defense, panic at encountering our own waste in such an intimate way does not allow for clear, continuous thoughts when all we want to do is escape the situation.

I confirmed once again that I needed to remove the mascara-like applicator from a vial with some special juice, take said applicator and swirl, scrape, poke into my turd, thus covering it as shown in the diagram. My first and second swipes didn’t smear my shit onto the tip the way it looked in the illustration, so I dove in at another location. The whole time, the smell of this open bucket of crap was testing me, taunting me- no, begging me to check my sanity and ask myself, “Should I have skipped that colonoscopy where I would have been unconscious while others probed that thing on my backside that is capable of creating such ugliness?”

Now with a good gob of pooscara on the applicator finally, I stuffed it into the small bottle and sealed it so tight that the technician would wonder what this “former Catholic” must have gone through to feel the need to forever lock it away, thereby ensuring that my sensibilities would never again be confronted by such horrors. The next step had me open the supplied bottle of solution and pour it into the bucket. The instructions emphasized that it was okay if the liquid didn’t immerse the evidence. Now, wishing I had those arm-length gloves they wear in movies when dealing with radioactive or toxic agents, I needed to carefully grab the lid and container, since NOBODY wants to spill such a thing, and seal them tightly, marking the first and only time I hope to ever deal with my own feces outside my body or a toilet. To those who just recoiled at the fact I wasn’t wearing gloves, I am old, and while I’ve had this trauma-inducing experience today, going into it, I thought, like so many other oldies probably do, it’s just poop; get over it.

The container in its industrial-grade zip-lock bag, with the mascara pen of poop riding shotgun, was placed into the shipping box, then I folded over the cardboard flaps, peeled off the tape covering the sticky stuff, and forever closed the box. Phew, all done, right?

NO! I needed to take this admission of doing stuff that has always been hidden in shame and present it to a clerk at a UPS store. For the next three hours, that box sat by my front door, mocking me that my choices were none. I had to deliver it; this wasn’t something I could foist onto my wife. I couldn’t ask her to run this box of my personal belongings into a store and unceremoniously hand it off to a stranger; no, I would have to confront my next fear. Would the person at the counter be a 20-something young woman who would glare at me for bringing her the worst present ever?

Luck was on my side. The young man, still a 20-something, saw the box, immediately recognized what it was, and lurched for a plastic bag. Reaching as far as he could, he thrust it in my direction, asking me to bag up the box. As I stumbled, explaining how I thought this level of embarrassment went away with manhood and losing my fear of buying condoms, which for a time had been replaced with having to buy tampons for my wife, he reassured me that they get these boxes of yesterday’s meals all the time. Check this off the list of part-time jobs I might take in my later years if we need to supplement our income, as I would never be able to deal with someone walking into the UPS store to make such a repugnant offering.

Pantry of Indulgences

Olive oils

Hours of organization, research, notes, recipes, and preparation inspired by our pantry of incredible diversity; that’s how I spent a recent Saturday. It all started with a video I watched while drinking my morning coffee, in which the person was sharing the 9:3:1 rule for salad dressings. With nine parts oil, three parts acid such as vinegar or lemon juice, and one part emulsifier such as mustard, you have the building blocks of a basic vinaigrette. I liked his thoughts about a lemon and basic dressing, but it was his list of additions for emulsifiers that captured my attention. My basic recipe, prior to today’s short clip, has been 4 tablespoons olive oil, 2 tablespoons vinegar, a heaping teaspoon of Dijon mustard, a finely sliced shallot, a microplaned clove of garlic, salt, and pepper.

DeepSeek (my AI of choice) told me to keep the mustard but add some wasabi. It also noted that sherry and rice vinegar are best for complementing the wasabi; cool. I then asked if I could integrate Colatura (Italian aged anchovy sauce) into my recipe; it said sure and that it was interchangeable with an anchovy fillet or two. The proverbial one thing leading to another went to work. While we were in California, I was thinking about bringing miso back into our diet after my bungled attempts some years ago. Using white miso was its recommendation, and a lot less than I was experimenting with in those early days.

Relishes

I have four pounds of eight varieties of heirloom garlic pre-ordered that will arrive this month; it’s currently curing at the farm where it was grown. So, I asked about using roasted garlic in my dressing and also freezing it; now I know how to work with that. In the video I’d been watching, Gochujang (Korean chili paste) was mentioned as a possible add-in for dressing along with Harissa (Tunisian chili paste) and even egg yolk as an emulsifier. With those in mind, we (AI and I) created more variations of salad dressings. Back in May and June during our road trip into the Midwest and Canada, we were buying locally prepared relishes, such as Vidalia Mustard, Green Tomato, Beet & Horseradish, Piccalilli, Chow Chow, and plain Vidalia Relish; recipes using those regional ingredients were created and logged. We were on a roll.

Vinegars

We now have more vinegars than anyone needs at a given time, such as four different kinds of sherry, red wine, champagne, white wine, balsamic, apple cider, rice, fermented coconut nectar vinegar (Filipino Sukang Tuba), Korean Daesang Chung Jung One persimmon vinegar, Chinese Chinkiang black vinegar, and the Japanese Mizkan brown rice black vinegar. Recently I bought a couple of bottles of La Guinelle Banyuls vinegar and learned today that I should be pairing it with a type of extra virgin olive oil I don’t have. While we have bottles featuring the Picual and Arbequina olive varietals, along with the Nocellara Etnea olives grown on the slopes of Mount Etna, and some blends for everyday cooking, there are a few gaps. In all, I was covering peppery, bitter, intense, mild, fruity, buttery, herbaceous, balanced, and grassy notes, but I didn’t have a sweet, buttery, nutty olive oil. So, a bottle of Frantoi Cutrera Primo from Sicily with its Biancolilla cultivar will be joining the pantry. This was what was needed for the Banyuls. At some point, I’ll find us the Arbosana and Koroneiki cultivars to round out the breadth of Italian, Spanish, and Greek olive oils.

Tinned fish from Australia

Finally finished with all that and almost 50 dressing recipes richer, I could turn my attention to soaking some Flor de Junio beans from Rancho Gordo for our next salads and then starting the next batch of granola. Actually, I started soaking the almonds, rye berries, walnuts, pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds, and oat groats yesterday. Then in the evening, I drained them, ground them to a rough mixture, and added walnut oil, eucalyptus honey, and homemade vanilla that has been aging for half a year using organic Mexican vanilla beans and vodka. Mixed and placed on dehydrator trays, the granola will slowly dry for the next couple of days at 130 degrees Fahrenheit (54 Celsius) before I mix it with rolled oats and store it in a Ute Indian hand-painted pot we bought in Southwest Colorado on the Reservation about 15 years ago. The only thing I don’t do is smudge to purify the vessel or wave crystals over the granola as it was set to dry.

I should add that the reason for the labor of finding and creating so many salad dressing recipes is so that we don’t grow bored with the many salads we’ve been eating. Our pantry is stocked with about 120 pounds of heirloom dry beans we use for various dishes, including our salads. We have literally hundreds of varieties of tinned fish represented by 60 types of fish, including the standards such as sardines, mackerel, and tuna; we also have a sampling of anchovies, branzino, carp, cod, dorade, eel, garfish, geoduck, hake, John Dory, milkfish, octopus, razor clams, rockfish, salmon, saury, scallops, skate, sturgeon, trout, tuyo, and zander. Obviously, some are smoked, most are in olive oil, some are spicy, and others are in curry. Some of these fish are strictly for eating from the can; they were too expensive to see them get lost in a salad or rice bowl, so we eat those plain or with bread. As for the photo above, it represents a recent shipment that arrived from Australia.

Lentils, beans, grains

To continue enjoying so much fish, beans, and greens, I figure different dressings paint these healthy bowls with flavor profiles that are forever shifting. In line with that, and while at our local grocery picking up some things, I asked the produce guy if anyone ever bought the rutabagas on display. He was honest; he said no. The truth was that those, along with fennel, turnips, celery root, parsnips, leeks, kohlrabi, and radicchio, hardly, if ever, sell, but are there to let the customers feel that the store is well stocked. He added, “It’s a loss, but they are cheap enough that the company absorbs the waste.” FYI, the black beans in this photo are known as Soja Noir; they are black soy beans with green insides, not the traditional black beans one might think they are.

Vegetables at a Mexican Grocery in Phoenix, Arizona

This unused diversity had me considering the ethnic grocery stores in the area and what offerings they have that we can incorporate into our diet of raw or roasted veggies mixed into our ever-complexifying salads. From the Hispanic markets, I can add verdolagas (purslane), huauzontle (a kind of broccoli rabe meets quinoa greens), chayote (squash), nopales (cactus paddles), calabacitas (another squash), epazote (herb), jicama (a root veg described as a cross between apple and potato), and camote morado (a purple sweet potato).

Lee Lee's Asian Grocery in Phoenix, Arizona

From our dozen or more Asian stores, the options grow to include gai lan (a Chinese broccoli), tong ho (chrysanthemum greens – like fennel + arugula + a hint of mint), lotus root, yu choy (choy sum), water spinach, shiso (perilla), mizuna (greens), daikon (radish), tatsoi (greens), komatsuna (greens), Napa cabbage, baby bok choy, watercress, pea shoots, and amaranth greens (spinach-like). This is the world outside of iceberg, romaine, and baby spinach. But there’s a big win here, too: price and a new palette of flavors. I suppose it’s a good thing that most people are creatures of habit and turn their noses up at this stuff, as increased demand would drive prices higher, and maybe we’d be relegated to iceberg lettuce.

Vegetables at a Mexican Grocery in Phoenix, Arizona

During this exercise, I learned that there’s more to olive oil than whatever is cheapest at Walmart, and that these oils are described with words reserved for wines, such as buttery, fruity, mild, intense, balanced, grassy, green, floral, sweet, peppery, herbaceous, bitter, pungent, robust, and volcanic (meaning earthy). Vinegars have their own key descriptions, such as sharp, citrusy, refreshing, neutral, bright, delicate, fruity, mild, deep, warm, nutty, woody, rich, savory, malty, smoky, sweet, musky, sour, and thick. How all of these pair and work with different emulsifiers depends on the greens, veggies, beans, and any other ingredients we are interested in working with. This is a relatively complex chemistry that I don’t intuitively understand yet, but AI does, and it has helped extend my knowledge and culinary options.

There is a caveat I bumped into along the way comparing American AI and Chinese AI. American systems have a cultural bias that appears to cater to popular U.S.-centric culture, likely from influencers and corporate marketers pushing hegemonic agendas that dictate what is (should be) on the average American’s plate. On the other hand, the Chinese AI, DeepSeek, in my case, is pushing facts and tapping suggestions that broaden my knowledge with no regard to what’s popular in our local grocery stores.

Frozen lentil and freekeh blocks

I noticed this when working on this project: I tend to resort to a 2:1 ratio of brown rice to quinoa when I’m making a grain dish; I asked for alternatives. AI suggested I consider farro, freekeh, bulgur, buckwheat, millet, spelt, kamut, wheat berries, sorghum, amaranth, and barley. It continued, saying that I could make up a “power grain jar,” where I mix equal parts farro, quinoa, millet, and green lentils and simmer for about 25 minutes. The next step was me asking it to take it further: what grain combos based on similar cooking times would work, and which of my grain mixtures would benefit from the addition of lentils. So, pre-mixed grains sounded great, but frozen blocks of already prepared mixtures sounded even better, and these silicone Souper Cubes turned out to be the perfect solution for adding convenience to using whole foods that can be time-consuming in their preparation. As square frozen blocks, they stack perfectly in our freezer and can be thawed in minutes. This particular mixture is black caviar lentils and toasted freekeh; yes, I know freekeh is already toasted, but toasting it before cooking it adds more impact.

Vallarta Market in Phoenix, Arizona

Finally, there is a seismic shift going on in our diet, which, to me, is in large part possible due to AI acting as my nutritionist, consultant to all things gourmet-related, and effectively my personal culinary alchemist. The other part of the equation is that, to deal with growing older and managing our health, we need to eat well. A single grocery store simply cannot feed Caroline and me without us making great sacrifices. The spectrum of what we can eat at home is unmatched by the restaurants far and wide in all of Arizona. Our local grocers have to appeal to the dominant buying segment of the market, which at this time means the lowest common denominator of relatively bland choices.

Vallarta Market in Phoenix, Arizona

Over the years, we’ve had friends who brought us into the foods of India, Myanmar, Thailand, Japan, China, the Middle East, and Mexico, while our explorations of the United States and Europe have afforded us the opportunity to sample flavors from coast to coast and country to country. The internet has broadened the scope and scale of a kind of personalized grocery store we shop at. The ethnic diversity in our cities has created incredible demand and offerings for Hispanic, Asian, Middle Eastern, and Indian ingredients, which have benefited our options, too. Specialty growers of heirloom beans, grains, and produce, along with meat and fish, combined with small makers of things like natto, shrubs, fermented products such as kefir and sauerkraut, small-batch vinegars, bakeries now using locally sourced ancient grains, and even some chains such as Penzey’s that make fresh spices and dried herbs available, are all part of our routine. By the way, if you think you’ve had bay leaves, I suggest you visit Penzey’s for their Turkish laurel, open the bag, and be prepared to be amazed at what they are supposed to smell like.

All of this is an incredible indulgence and luxury to the two of us, though I think it’s also a shame. The American dominant food culture, by and large, has become homogenized and downright bland. Butchers are now rare, specialty bakeries that do exist are incredibly expensive (the sprouted sourdough multigrain we buy is $14 a loaf), and even Whole Foods limits its offerings to what Amazon’s algorithm tells them will sell to wealthy clients whose diets are typically as boring as those who shop at Winco. For those who will never know what a nice bread with Bordier butter and Jacobsen’s flaked salt from Netarts Bay, Oregon, is like, or who are afraid to try some amazing Nassari Boquerones (vinegar- and oil-prepared white anchovies), they likely can’t see the value in tracking down some ayocote beans, a Picual olive oil, or learning how great ingredients might change the way they see their Standard American Diet, commonly known as S.A.D.

Map of America – 2026

John Wise and Caroline Wise - our U.S. map of roads traveled

In 2001, we bought this map of the United States and started highlighting the roads we’d driven. Minus European trips, the map is a record of nearly 1,500 days on American roads, which equates to no less than 300,000 miles driven (about 500,000 kilometers), possibly far more. In Europe, we’ve likely driven more than another 60,000 miles, or about 100,000 kilometers. In total, this equates to driving approximately 15 times around the Earth.

I have mixed feelings about these numbers. On one hand, we’ve used a lot of the planet’s resources, but on the other, I have 2,434,348 words spread between 3,476 blog posts and no less than 25,623 photos that add up to one very large cultural archive. Not only does this equal about 30 novels’ worth of material, but it also does so on the margins of the internet, where, when it disappears, no one will ever know that two people had so extensively seen the breadth of this massive country and took the time to document it all. There is some sense of futility in the realization that the first people ever to do such a thing will, in a sense, fall off the map. I mean the content, not the people.

As for this ancient piece of paper, it might have more tape attached to it than what the map itself once weighed. We have a replacement, but the reality of transferring each and every trace is daunting, so it sits with the old map, waiting for us to stop repairing this 25-year-old relic. As for that Atlantic stretch of seaboard that is wide open, we’ve been discouraged by how much of the East Coast is in private hands, with infrequent views or beaches to visit. Regarding future traces to be drawn over the map, I am forever looking at the places in between, wondering where the small roads might take us next, because we are not done exploring the United States yet.

Saturated

Queen Creek Canyon in Superior, Arizona

Today, we left Duncan, Arizona, and drove to Phoenix, only for me to turn around and go back. Caroline had some work stuff that required her to be in the office, and our time of watching cats wasn’t finished yet. Spending some time apart would probably be a good thing, and this deserves a mea culpa; I’ve been easily annoyed this past week, and even petty little things were nagging me. Specifically, things I wanted to see as transgressions on my wife’s part, but which in reality were nothing more than meaningless nits. The problem was that my tension was hurting her, and at the same time, it baffled me why these emotions were bubbling up. It wasn’t until I was back on the road, having left Caroline at home, that it dawned on me what my issues were.

For more than a year, between last year’s trip to France and this year’s vacation into the middle of America and Canada, followed by a quick turnaround that took us to San Diego for a month, working on and finishing the draft of my novel in between, and now this time in Duncan, Arizona, I’ve been self-compelled into non-stop service to a brain that has made relentless demands. Maybe I’m burned out.

Queen Creek Canyon in Superior, Arizona

By the time I’d escaped Phoenix and reached Queen Creek Canyon in Superior this afternoon, I was beginning to see that I’ve been perpetually performing either for myself or for others. Stretches of free time where I have nothing to deliver, nothing to make, and nobody to serve have been rare. Writing has always felt like a selfish, self-absorbed indulgence that is difficult to justify as being meaningful or having relevance. It feels as though it is something that only someone with vast amounts of spare time could ever pursue, a luxury afforded to a person with idle time. There is a contradiction here, as I’m also well aware that I’m an advocate for intentionality, while understanding the real value of capturing moments that would otherwise fade into mere fragments of memories. In actuality, I’ve simply been vigilant about living by those ideas. Still, I find conflict within myself.

Writing, creating, cooking, and caring about the flow of our lives is never a chore. Loving, adoring, and sharing with Caroline is never less than amazing, but here I am, unable to kickstart the editing of my nascent novel, getting snippy at Caroline, and growing impatient with myself, which manifests as a tension that hurts my best friend. And then here I am, behind the wheel of the car driving east, knowing I needn’t cook for myself; I’m resigned to the idea that I may not be ready to pick up my novel yet, and if I choose, I can do absolutely nothing over the coming days. It was that relaxing of demands, not from any external sources, certainly not from Caroline as she’s the last person to put demands on me, but from my inner dialogue of where I find value in most effectively using my abilities, opportunities, and a brain that desires performance: until it doesn’t.

Somewhere on the San Carlos Apache Reservation in Arizona

And so it is time to put my head in the clouds, to drift, and lose concerns for those things that will be there tomorrow. Dreaming of things not yet done has often felt like an elixir for demands I’m not ready to tackle, though this often arrives with a price. In my teens and early 20s, that price was drugs and alcohol. From my later 20s into my 30s, the vice was reading and travel, through which I could shape a version of myself that alienated others in ways that, in retrospect, it might have been better had I stuck with drugs and alcohol, but like Salvador Dali once said, “I don’t do drugs, I am drugs.” I was enough for myself. During my 40s, I began to realize what the shaping of John was allowing, and I worked to refine the abstractions of a self becoming comfortable with what had emerged from both intentional choices and accidental moments of becoming.

Now, in my 60s, I feel like I’m crossing the T’s and dotting the I’s; refinement is an art of cultivation as I figuratively dress myself for an exit that is hopefully still on a distant horizon. Does that sound morbid? I don’t think so. Death is always imminent, regardless of whether we choose to acknowledge it or not. Knowing it is there and that my time is finite, I’m well aware of the importance of exercising decisions that only (mostly) add value to my and my wife’s life. This is where I’m able to save myself from the stress I inflict upon my life, and turn instead to what I can do for the two of us, instead of predominantly focusing on myself.

Back in Duncan, my time of herding cats in isolation and finding peace of mind was cut short when, on Monday, the hotel’s A/C  created an issue I couldn’t solve, so I shut it down after talking with Deborah. I left that day, arriving back to Caroline barely more than 24 hours after I left Phoenix. I hope my attitude improves with this bit of self-awareness.

A Week out in Duncan, Arizona

Picketpost Mountain in Superior, Arizona

Five weeks after our return from vacation, we were off to the San Diego, California, area for that episode of dog watching and shoreline walks. And less than a week after coming home from California, we were off again, this time for about two weeks. The deal is that between the second week of June and yesterday, I’ve been writing nearly non-stop, firstly about our vacation and then about our adventures in San Diego, and I feel like I need a break. Actually, I need to turn my attention back to my novel, and so, considering how much I’ve already written about Duncan, I thought I was set to write nothing at all about this trip. Obviously, I’ve compromised the deal with myself to leave this alone. I’ve decided to write a single overview post instead that covers the entire week we were out of town. Ultimately, our trip was cut short due to technical difficulties; more about that in the next post. The first photo is of Picketpost Mountain in Superior, which lies on the other side of Apache Junction before heading into Queen Creek Canyon; we passed it on our drive east on Sunday.

Sunset in Duncan, Arizona

We are out here in Duncan to watch about a dozen or so cats that are permanent guests at the Simpson Hotel while the owners, Deborah and Clayton, take a much-needed vacation. When we were staying here for the 4th of July, I suggested that they should consider a break from things and that Caroline and I could come out later in the year to watch the place. Well, they organized themselves lickety-split, and yesterday afternoon they were packed up and driving into New Mexico to make their way to points between here, Santa Fe, Denver, and a tiny place called Medanales in New Mexico (not far from Abiquiu, as though anyone has ever heard of that). This photo is from our evening stroll on Monday, our first full day in town. We were overlooking the Gila River channel, more or less. [We were also enjoying the presence of many birds, frogs, and bats – Caroline]

Purslane in Duncan, Arizona

On our way to breakfast at the good ol’ Ranch House, everything pointed to this plant being purslane (which is no longer considered just a weed but a superfood), but if mistaken, we could be eating a toxic plant. We’d recently added purslane that we’d purchased at a farmers’ market to a salad; it was tasty, but with a bunch of cats depending on us to feed them, we couldn’t risk an unexpected trip to a hospital by munching on a streetside plant that may or may not be what we and AI thought it was. Our second full day in town would prove rather mundane, as Caroline is working remotely and there will be no oceanside walks during our stay.

Summer Squash Salad inspired by Wildland Restaurant in Carlsbad, California

We did bring with us some culinary adventures. I experimented a couple of times with summer squash, a Meyer lemon from California, a bottle of Colatura (fish sauce), and ricotta salata, trying to replicate the dish we fell in love with over in Carlsbad at Wildland Restaurant. Caroline and I were in agreement that I got fairly close with the first version but maybe used too much lemon in my second attempt. In addition, we brought our homemade granola, a bunch of tinned fish, dry beans, lentils, olive oil, and vinegars with us to make many a salad during our stay in this food desert.

Great Plains Toad seen in Duncan, Arizona

More than a few of our days out here, rain was expected, threatened even, but it never materialized. Our wishes for full-blown monsoonal storms went unfulfilled; apparently, also disappointed were the toads who came out for a good soaking only to sit here waiting with us.

Looking over Duncan, Arizona

Much of the area down there is effectively in the Gila River Valley, which is known to flood from time to time, except when we are in town, as the threat of rain remained at the edges of the horizon, just as it does while Caroline and I are in Phoenix. We feel cursed being denied the pleasures of summer thunderstorms. Maybe in some small way, this was our “potential” waterside walk.

Jackson 6700 Railway Track Tamper (Ballast Tamper) in Duncan, Arizona

For Friday, I’m sharing two photos because it’s not every day that we see a legacy model Jackson 6700 railway track tamper (ballast tamper), now owned by Harsco Rail, and well, we think this kind of equipment is interesting. There’s a great video of a newer model at work on the Harsco website, should you be interested in watching this unique machine do its job.

Aspiring Cheerleaders Bake Sale in Duncan, Arizona

It’s early Saturday morning, and we have plans, but right across the street from the hotel, a bunch of moms have coordinated a bake sale to support the more than 20 kids who signed up for cheer this year. Not needing a single baked good, it was the spirit of the thing that saw us handing over the first donation to their effort of helping fund the kids and their extracurricular activity. With our snacks for later in the day stored back in the hotel, it was time to hit the road for our 75-mile drive east into New Mexico.

Silver City, New Mexico

Our destination was Silver City, Bullard Street in particular. While we’ve visited friends out here, passed through during the height of COVID, and randomly found ourselves driving south through town before, we’d always found ourselves on Hudson Street, better known as New Mexico Highway 90. This main thoroughfare is only a block away from Bullard Street, and we had no idea that this is the main attraction of this quaint, enchanted, small town of 9,500 people. I should add: the reason we are here is that Caroline wanted to go thrift store browsing and antiquing, after hearing Deborah and Clayton praise the local shops and witnessing the interesting finds they have brought back.

Silver City, New Mexico

While the shopping resonates with Caroline, the hippie vibe and this sticker talking to my heart by pointing out that Joe Rogan sucks let me know that this is a safe space.

Silver City, New Mexico

While we were in Southern California and Caroline was working remotely, we used our weekends for deeper, all-day explorations; that was today’s plan.

Silver City, New Mexico

Quickly, we were enamored with Silver City, maybe a little saddened that it had taken so long to learn of its main attraction.

Food Co-op in Silver City, New Mexico

After meandering to the end of Bullard Street, I spotted the local Food Co-op grocery and saw that, at least regarding food, we could live here. While the shop is relatively small, it is obvious that the locals and people who live 75 miles away, such as Deborah and Clayton, who make regular visits for shopping here, show that there is a sophisticated, gourmet demand in this remote corner of the state.

El Sol Theatre in Silver City, New Mexico

With Caroline dipping in and out of the shops, I’d have a quick look around and just as quickly find myself back outside admiring the visible history of this town. There were once two car dealerships here, a couple of movie theaters, and this, the El Sol Theatre for live performances.

Tranquil Buzz Coffee House in Silver City, New Mexico

Even the side streets held promise; on one such detour, we came across the Tranquil Buzz Coffee Shop.

Tranquil Buzz Coffee House in Silver City, New Mexico

The cold brew was great, but the interior sections and the small patio really made this place a destination anyone would love spending time in.

Silver City, New Mexico

Off the main drag and just down from the coffee shop were these nine or ten musicians jamming in the shade. There was no signage; they weren’t visible from the main street; they were just a bunch of friends hanging out and playing some tunes.

Silver City, New Mexico

I’m picking up on some vibes that the New Moon Dance at the 1st Church of Harmony might be a funkier kind of event, likely reflective of this mountain town.

Silver City, New Mexico

No matter the angle of the four faces of this clock facing the streets, time has stopped in Silver City.

Silver City, New Mexico

Getting hungry for a late lunch, it was time to get out of town.

Food Basket Grocery Store in Silver City, New Mexico

But not before stopping at another little independent grocery store. Where and when were carpeted grocery store floors a good idea? This is where this store started verging into the weird; I’d bet few people have ever walked on carpeting while shopping or pushed their cart over it.

Caroline Wise at the Whiskey Creek Zócalo in Arenas Valley, New Mexico

A few miles out of town, we stopped at the highly recommended Whiskey Creek Zocalo. Not only do they feature live music, pizza, some great soyrizo (soy chorizo) stuffed mushrooms, and are dog friendly, but they also feature back of the creepy van nude psychic readings with simultaneous tax advice for those who need it.

Whiskey Creek Zócalo in Arenas Valley, New Mexico

This was the outdoor stage at Zocalo; they also have an indoor stage and a space that might be more of a speakeasy social area.

New Mexico approaching Arizona on Highway 70

With the day winding down, it was time to tackle the 75-mile drive back to Duncan, as it was approaching the hour when the cats would be expecting their evening meal.

Now, while this post doesn’t address what we did Sunday, I’ll explain. Caroline needed to return to Phoenix because she wanted to be in the office this week for some in-person meetings with coworkers visiting from out of state, one of them a new hire. We left early Sunday morning after the first cat feeding, drove to Phoenix, with a late breakfast stop at Guayo’s El Rey for some solid Mexican food in Miami, and then I turned around and drove right back out to Duncan for a total of eight hours of road time.

Back Home in the Valley of the Sun

Sunrise in Phoenix, Arizona

After a month of coastal foggy mornings in Southern California, this Arizona sunrise is one of those powerful reminders of the joys of living in this state. Before we have time to fall back into our routines, though, we’ll be right back out of town. On Sunday, we are heading east to the familiar environs of Duncan, Arizona, only six miles from the New Mexico stateline. See you there.